Tuesday, September 18, 2007

What next?

My sister, who was supposed to be coming here to help me take care of my mom, had an "incident" two days ago (doctors still aren't sure if it was a stroke, a seizure, or what), but she kinda went catatonic on me and almost fell down the stairs ... thank God I was near her and caught her. So, she is in the hospital now (in a head trauma unit) and they are watching her. They did an MRI and she has a subdural hematoma from a previous fall and it is pretty large and does not seem to be healing, so they are considering brain surgery. I have no idea what will happen or how this is going to affect my life, so I'm in real limbo here ... but I'm hoping someone can give me some answers soon. It does feel like I'm losing more and more of my own life and I'm trying very hard to hang onto what's good for ME, but at times like this it is just so hard to focus on myself when my mom and sister are so needy. But, I promise you all that I am doing everything in my power to protect my own health and I'll hopefully be back in touch with you soon ... but right now, my days are spent running back and forth between the hospital and home and I'm too exhausted to even think much lately.

When does this end?

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